A new begining !

The paragraph in today’s daily says “Actions are performed by Three means ...Body, Speech and Mind. Body can help or destroy physically, Speech can praise or curse. These can be controlled by a Court of Law in the former and by Society for the later, it’s the third realm.. Thoughts that you constantly entertain. This is wholly of your making’
It was indeed a revelation for a lesser mortal like me, who is a novice in gathering knowledge on this vast subject called LIFE.In retrospection of the past Ten Years, these words do gain a lot of relevance. Today, when I think back to the thoughts that were uppermost in this period, they were crude, totally dispassionate and gainful for the self and no other. There are enough justifications for being like that, but there are also answers that negate those justifications. How true…. You are a product of your thoughts. It sounds good on paper, but little do we realize that every moment of our life, these very thoughts, result in the end product of who we become and what we get materialistically!
It’s a Buddhist friend of mine who initiated me into the process of Right Thought. Ever since, things fell into place. Taking one step at a time, to think good for one hour a day, and then let your mind play havoc with thoughts !! Slowly, it became 2 hrs and then a little more and now a few months by, its indeed the best gift I have got. Alone in this world, I was living in a state of perpetual insecurity. The result, alcohol, which puts you into euphoria, but actually into depression and then your brain is like a runaway train. The result is seen next day, when the Train is still chugging on the same track of negative thoughts!! Here comes the challenge of changing tracks. Someone suggested meditation and yoga and soft music and going to the temple and and and ……!!! Close your eyes, look inward, and you will recoil from the sight! That’s it, you are back on the Freeway to Happiness!
Days go by, slowly, you start realizing, when the brain is in turmoil, Heart beats faster, Anxiety pumps up the pressure and you know, its not a good thing, all it needs is to STOP….. Look….. Proceed!!Its a wonderful life, the tendency to sacrifice is enormous, all of us have a Mother Teresa in us, and we expect returns in terms of love and caring!! Boom, there goes the balloon when it doesn’t happen! Take courage, take those thoughts and dump them, get your train back on track and the Station would be a wonderful place to get out and stretch.
To conclude, a few years back, I was at the lowest ebb of life, contemplating to end it. Great Expectations turned to Great Disappointments! It was a blame game. Totally convinced that I was Father Right, and the world was Mama Wrong!!Precious days spent in self pity, a heart full of revenge, faltering at work, and an outcast in society. It couldn’t get worse.. .. Keeping a happy mind turned it all. To an interest in cooking, ironing clothes, reading books of knowledge, enjoying the early morning mist, silence of the night, shadows in the yellow glow of a street lamp and most of all, the laughter of children !! Am content, happy and most of all, interested in humanity and a wonderful destiny that lies in our brain!